everyone knows that i'm naturally drawn to those younger than me. like 18-21 is the age range that i've been going on dates with. i don't know why. when we go out to eat, they can't pay for me cause they most likely don't have a job. the majority don't have a car. one even asked to borrow money from me. not to mention that a relationship is pretty much out of the question. it's just been crappy. but they're so exciting to me for some reason.
when i turn around and go on dates with guys who are 24-26, it's so different. they insist on paying for me. they have careers, what? and cars, huh? i think i feel kind of intimidated. they're better off than me with their own places and masters degrees. sometimes i feel like they're stuck up. i guess i feel like i lack control with an older man. if they took care of me, i'd feel indebted somehow. i dunno.
dating is so weird. i still can't fight the desire to go to a club and meet a sexy, young guy who i know will ultimately treat me like crap. but i guess i should give it a whirl, so...here we go again.
