"what do you expect these days?"

i got all play/actually pissed off during a costume contest tonight. my friend arielle and i were dressed up as mario and luigi and we decided we'd sign up for the contest for kicks, knowing full well that we wouldn't win. we knew that to win, you'd have to be a scantily clad female. despite knowing what would happen, it didn't stop me from getting agitated by seeing the final females barely dressed with lingerie. shit, two of them didn't even have the standard bunny/cat ears. they just had bra and panties, perhaps a garter belt, and an unbuttoned shirt. i guess they had dressed up as uhhh...well, the announcer called them strippers. didn't hear them disagree.

i don't think that i'm a feminist. i feel like the majority of women should feel the way i do about these sorts of things and that it's not an extreme view to have. some people might get annoyed by this post, but they can suck my balls. i'm not being a sore loser (although mario and luigi will always reign supreme), and i'm not just dissin hos. but seein a group of guys gather around and drool over a half-naked chick asked to drop it low and shake her ass is just...it's whack, yo.

in other news, i still haven't had any luck with guys. i've settled for saying "i'm looking for a relationship" on a first date/meet and greet/whatever with a dude just to make things clear and get em out of the way. the most recent dude i had to let go because he didn't wanna give up the freedom to basically be with any girl he wants when he wants i guess. i can't think of any other reason. if ya don't want in my pants, but don't ultimately want a relationship, ehhh something's not adding up. he apparently liked me, but not enough to commit. committing is not the in thing these days. and i wouldn't want you to miss out on the half-naked chick droppin it low and shakin her ass. by all means, be free. there has to be a guy out there who will appreciate me, love me, and want only me. he's there, damnit. sometimes i honestly feel like i've looked past him because of my own stupidity...