i gotta apologize to some dudes :(

blehhh i've been kind of a bitch lately. i know of a couple of guys who like me. presently, the feelings aren't mutual. however, i've said and done things that i believe may have lead them on, and i may have done these on purpose.

most of you know about the crap i went through at the end of my last semester in school. i was miserable feeling that i wasn't wanted by the one person i did. i'm over that and him now thankfully. but i guess to make up for it, i've been trying to keep a few guys chasing me so i could feel desired.

it's just mean, really. i know what it's like to be lead on and dropped off and hated it. unrequited feelings suck. and i'm sorry if i've done something stupid to mess with your feelings. i do care, and i'll try and be more honest now for others and myself.

but if i get crushed soon down the road, i'll know karma is knockin me on my ass for playing around with guys lol :/