i feel like a puppy.

yesh. i feel like a poor puppy that has multiple people kneelin and whistlin and makin cute kissy noises at me to encourage me to walk their way. buuuut i don't wanna walk to any of them. not so soon, anyway. i can't choose. i don't have all items and information necessary to make the correct decision...

if i use my head, i guess the answer is obvious. but what i feel is screamin somethin else. i dunno how much longer i can wait, and i dunno if they'll wait much longer. waiting sucks balls, especially if it's in vain. well...would ya wait for me? or have the courage that i don't have just yet? i wanna feel like i'm worth the effort anyway.

now if i could just say this to the people that it needs to be said to...hahaha, says betsy love. no pressure at all. it's only just spilling out of my ears!