no good deed goes unpunished

what's up with that? too often recently i've been finding myself doing nice things for others only to have said others do something shitty to me in return.

do someone a favor that they take for granted, don't appreciate, and never attempt to return.

taking care of people at aladins, kissing their asses, and having them stiff you. or walk out.

sometimes i wonder what it is about me that makes people wanna jump at the chance to take advantage of me or hurt my feelings in some other way. i'm tired of it and am getting pissed as shit. usually i just try to let it go, but now i don't want to. i just wanna do the same bullshit to them, which is upsetting cause i know it means i'm stooping down to their level.

is it that hard to be a genuinely good person? that hard to be decent? you bitches.