"what do you expect these days?"

i got all play/actually pissed off during a costume contest tonight. my friend arielle and i were dressed up as mario and luigi and we decided we'd sign up for the contest for kicks, knowing full well that we wouldn't win. we knew that to win, you'd have to be a scantily clad female. despite knowing what would happen, it didn't stop me from getting agitated by seeing the final females barely dressed with lingerie. shit, two of them didn't even have the standard bunny/cat ears. they just had bra and panties, perhaps a garter belt, and an unbuttoned shirt. i guess they had dressed up as uhhh...well, the announcer called them strippers. didn't hear them disagree.

i don't think that i'm a feminist. i feel like the majority of women should feel the way i do about these sorts of things and that it's not an extreme view to have. some people might get annoyed by this post, but they can suck my balls. i'm not being a sore loser (although mario and luigi will always reign supreme), and i'm not just dissin hos. but seein a group of guys gather around and drool over a half-naked chick asked to drop it low and shake her ass is just...it's whack, yo.

in other news, i still haven't had any luck with guys. i've settled for saying "i'm looking for a relationship" on a first date/meet and greet/whatever with a dude just to make things clear and get em out of the way. the most recent dude i had to let go because he didn't wanna give up the freedom to basically be with any girl he wants when he wants i guess. i can't think of any other reason. if ya don't want in my pants, but don't ultimately want a relationship, ehhh something's not adding up. he apparently liked me, but not enough to commit. committing is not the in thing these days. and i wouldn't want you to miss out on the half-naked chick droppin it low and shakin her ass. by all means, be free. there has to be a guy out there who will appreciate me, love me, and want only me. he's there, damnit. sometimes i honestly feel like i've looked past him because of my own stupidity...

tool

i called you that from the beginning. you look like a tool. you talk like a tool. i dunno why, but i keep thinking that guys like you deserve at least a small chance. i feel like i'm different from the girls you're used to, so you should treat me differently. and when you don't, what does that mean? i guess i've become the same as them. i guess i deserve for you to treat me like i'm disposable :/

i was a fool

and i'm still a fool. but this time a guy has made ME a pecan pie! so SUCK on THAT.

names that are awkward to say in bed

by: ashlee and arielle at 2am

john paul joseph senior (i dunno why you'd say his entire name in bed. ask arielle.)

lucas

pete

nathaniel

ed

arielle fell asleep.

this is a stupid blog.

i think i'm racist because i'm only finding darker skin to be immediately attractive at the moment.

wtf why is this guy talking to me? i ended things because i wanted to end them, not because i wanted to hear from you a month later.

it's not that i hold bitter feelings towards him. if i see him out and about, i might hit the gas though. impulses, yo.

ya know that awkward time when a romance fails and there's nothing going on with anyone...you know the time will be brief before a new wild one appears, but you still wonder who it will be and when. and then there they are. standing with their cell phone out, trynna get yo numba. another stupid one. i like those.

pecan pie

i have made yet another pecan pie and my intention is to finally give this one to him. i've already made two. before i had the chance to give him those, i ate them cause i lack self control and pecan pie is really delicious. what really sucks is that i made them for his birthday, which has come and gone. i'm so selfish. but i will not touch this pie because last night he told me that he liked me.

the little boys that try to play

i've had three guys rapid fire immediately decide to quit trying to pursue me and act like little titty babies because 1) they became aware that i liked someone that wasn't them and/or 2) i just flat out told them "no" when they tried to get into my pants.

ok, so about the first reason. as of today, 7/28/11, i like one dude. a month ago, i liked a different dude. months before that, i liked someone else. multiple someone elses. unfortunately (or fortunately), nothing worked out with any of the guys that i liked. they were all d bags :) what i'm trying to say is...time changes shit. what is meant to be will be. if you think that i'm not worth the effort and you wanna quit when i'm not interested in you at the moment, then...i really never will be interested in you! and you wonder why girls look past you?

and about the second reason. just NO, i don't want you like that. and one guy says to me, "you know, there are still some genuine guys like me left." before i can finish laughing my balls off (trust me, he was only about getting with me), i've already been unfriended. AW, MY SOUL!! looks like you're farther away from my pants than you were before, if that's possible. maybe try talking to the next girl like she's more than just a sex object and things might go more smoothly for you.

i'm a bee hotch and i'm full of myself. just waiting for someone, anyone to give me a heart boner.

i was just a conquest, and you're a dick

and it sucks that i have to keep what you did to myself and i can't fight it. in everyone else's eyes, and your own, you did no wrong. but you're a bitch. i didn't deserve to be treated like some ho. you'll get your comeuppance eventually. at least i hope so. unfair.